I do want to thank Jason, and everyone at the Monastery again for welcoming me with such openness. I'm still amazed that I was granted this opportunity to see shining examples of the teachings of A Course in Miracles, and for initially in a lengthy while, I don't feel alone.
Element of me wanted to stay longer, but beneath that desire was thinking that I would be doing this for the wrong reason; as a means to avoid my problems. The stronger feeling was, and is, that my travels will continue.
Before I left, Jason asked if I'd had any insights. What I'm about to generally share was not yet clear during those times; only on the drive away achieved it coalesce.
That morning, several lines from the Vance Joy song kept running through my head, “I never should have told you, never should have enable you to see inside a course in miracles. Don't want it troubling the mind, won't you let it be?” This confused me as I could not think of anything that I'd said that I felt regret for.
Eventually, the phrase, “don't want it troubling your mind” stood out. This reminded me that the most prominent fear I'd in arriving at the Monastery was that I'd somehow interfere with its residents'reassurance, by simply my presence alone. This belief that I could negatively affect other people's state of mind has been with me for several years, and has colored lots of my past experiences and relationships.
This fear left my awareness immediately after I arrived. On the drive away it rose again, but I remembered David saying in one of his true videos that minds cannot attack. I cried and laughed, and now feel like the belief will be (has been?) released.
You can find other items that happened that felt important, but I can't think of them right now.
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